I have come to hate that sentence, after more than two years of being in pain, I don't believe it and I have found that the doctors I've come into contact with, with the exception of my family doctor, who until recently did try to help, don't care if their patients are in pain.
I've also learned that my ability to keep functioning, or at least trying to function, through the pain appears to make them less likely to care. To quote Dr. Dziad the last time I saw him and expressed to him how bad the pain was and how it was impacting my life, "Just take Motrin."
As my family doctor expressed, the concern is that I'll become addicted. Which is the most assine thing I've ever heard, since if after two years of taking narcotic pain pills and having to take larger doses, if I was going to be an addict I would have already been one. I was and still am living with pain every day, only taking the pills when I couldn't take it any longer for that day.
Giving me a narcotic pain pill that doesn't work because it's too weak is basically the same thing as telling me to take Motrin.
Which is another reason for this blog, I don't tell many people what's going on, I try to fake it and most days I fake it rather well, few of the people I work with realize how much pain I'm still in. Nor do I post about the pain on Facebook, I don't want to be that whiny ass person on Facebook who is always complaining about their life.
When people notice I'm in pain, I realize I need to try harder to fake it ... Until I get home.
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